A fresh start

Well, I bought a house a couple of weeks ago. I can't wait to get all my stuff the way I want it! Talk about STUFF. I never realized I had so much .... stuff! I can't just say it's baby stuff, most of it is mine. I am trying to simplify but sometimes it's hard to let go of STUFF. Hard to let go of the old house, what was suppose to be. I found of a lot of his stuff while moving although I thought I got rid of most of it. Mostly junk you know. Had another garage sale and ended up giving away most of it. I guess moving on brings up lots of emotions. I remember moving in (of course it was only two 1/2 years ago). Oh how I loved that house. I still drive by it sometimes. Sometimes on accident, sometimes on purpose. Cory and I will start a new life together and be very happy. It's very exciting! Can't wait to see what's in store for us next! I cannot express my gratitude to everyone who has helped me the past year and a 1/2. You know who you are ;) I don't know what I would do without my parents, aunts, uncles, brother etc. I love you all.
I will post pics of the house soon! I've been so dang busy lately!

Let me catch you up!!

Sorry everyone! It's been way to long since I have blogged!! Let me catch you up on what's been going on!! Cory just all of a sudden is growing growing growing!! In the last two weeks she has changed so much! In the last two weeks she has cut a tooth and started sitting up on her own. She is working on learning to crawl and pulling up. She is full of energy and always wants to be on the move!! She has her great grandma's firey temper and if she doesn't get her way she lets every single person know it! Her personality is the same as the day she was born just stronger and more expressive. It's wonderful to see her grow. I can't believe how big she is getting but is still so small!

Cory at 1 month old, this picture was taken at her aunt Shakakhan's house (aka charlotte's). This picture brings back really good memories of our first visit!

Cory at 2 months old... pretty in pink. She was starting her "social smiles". During this month she learned how to rollover from back to belly.

Cory at 4 months. Little mischievious expression!! She is definately figuring us all out!!

Cory at 5 months making us all smile with her toothless grin!

We have bought a new house and are signing papers for it today! Yeah! A brand new start for me and the baby, I can't wait! I will post pics as soon as the house is together! Very hardworking strong men moved us there all weekend and everything I own is in the master bedroom (scary!). I have my work cut out for me for the next couple of weeks!

Grins anyone?

Okay... Cory is smiling on purpose now! It is not just a muscle reflex!! I was laughing and talking to her this morning and she would just smile and smile!! Then it got old and she cried haha!! She is so amazing!

Exciting Times

Well, Cory is changing everyday! I weighed her today and she is 8 pounds and 13 1/2 oz. Can you believe a month ago she was born? Now, 4 weeks older and two pounds heavier she is growing and changing so fast! Everyday she looks a little different, is a little more alert, notices a little more of her environment. It is so awesome to watch her (awake and asleep). My friend recently visited us. Her daughter is 8 months old, has brown hair, blue eyes and a smile that is all gums and can stop traffic! You know the kind of smile that makes you smile or even laugh back? Well, I was her delivery nurse, so along with that comes a special attachment you know? Well I just couldn't believe how much she had grown, how expressive and playful she was. It made me wish that Cory was at that stage! I know I shouldn't wish time away--for sure, but I can't help but wish she was more responsive to me. I cant wait until she looks at me and smiles, says "mama", or "I love you!" Until then, I will be content with her occasional grin, tongue movements, farts and grunts!! HAHA. I dream of what she will look like at 2 mo, 3, 4,5,6 etc. One month already gone.... wow!

How Sweet it is to be loved by you....

How wonderful to be a mother... To see her big deep blue eyes staring at me is the best thing in the world. I find myelf living to see her grin... trying so hard to do anything to make her smile at me!! Her oooooo face when she has gas and her yawn and cries make me laugh! I don't know if she has the capacity to LOVE someone yet or just knows she needs me for survival but there's no doubt how I feel about her! My house is now filled with swings, bouncers, tubs, bassinets, bottles and breast pump accessories haha!! It is so crazy how a life can change overnight!

Cory

Well, finally, she has arrived!! (And finally a new blog entry as arrived as well)

Yes after many months of waiting (and many hours of labor) Cory Marie Pilgrim was delivered via cesarean section on April 29, 2009. She has completely changed my life and I cannot imagine it without her now! Everyday she does something new and different and I can see her personality shaping! I don't think you know true love until you have a child, it's something you can't describe and truly unmeasurable.

She's not only changed my life but she has grabbed ahold of her grandparents hearts and hasn't let go. I love to watch my parents hold her and see the love they have for her. It's amazing the love and joy a baby can bring to a family. My brother and sister in law can only see her via web cam, but it will have to do for now! I can't wait to have my brother see her and hold her. I know she will love him endlessly and he will be the greatest uncle ever!!

Not only am I a mother this year, I will always be an aunt too! I cannot wait to see my brother's child and love him/her too!! I have a feeling Cory and I will take a lot of trips to Las Angeles to visit. I can just see those two babies walking barefoot on the beach together, playing and laughing. I cannot wait! These are such exciting times for our family and hopfully just the beginning!

Oh the songs he sings.... (Elton John that is)

I was listening to the radio and heard this Elton John song. No, it's not a new song nor is it one I hadn't heard, but the words hit me in ways like it never has before... probably better with the melody to listen to but...

Hey you, you're a child in my head
You haven't walked yet
Your first words have yet to be said
But I swear you'll be blessed

I know you're still just a dream
your eyes might be green
Or the bluest that I've ever seen
Anyway you'll be blessed

And you, you'll be blessed
You'll have the best
I promise you that
I'll pick a star from the sky
Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that, promise you that, promise you that
You'll be blessed

I need you before I'm too old
To have and to hold
To walk with you and watch you grow
And know that you're blessed